A story of determination

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 14:01:38 GMT

Today I weighed in at 127 pounds. I'm four pounds away from my goal, which is exciting. I really hope I reach it soon; To be honest though, I'm scared of the maintenance period. It's easy to restrict yourself, because you know what to do. I hope I don't slip back into my old habits.

Is it weird that my weight will suddenly drop? I think it's mostly water weight, because I'll see my weight shoot up then down based on how I ate the day before. But last week I was in the low 130s (131/132) and for the past few days I've been 127/128. I don't overdo anything. I ALWAYS get at least 1200 calories and I work out a regular amount. I walk a lot to work and such, but I'm not in dangerous territory. I suppose I should just be happy.

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 00:04:48 GMT

I took a break from this livejournal because I was getting obsessive with my eating and exercise habits. I'm back though, for now :)

I've gotten really into running. It's been very uplifting for me. Running has always been that thing that someone who was really healthy was capable of doing. I don't think I ever ran more than 2 miles in a row ever... and I was a somewhat athletic kid.

I'm up to 4 miles in 33.5 minutes on the treadmill now. Woohoo! I'm trying to get my endurance way up so I can run long runs. I've also been walking to and from work most days. My job is about 2 miles away, so that on top of working out at the gym 5-6 days a week has been good for me. I've also been trying to do strength training at least two times a week. Good stuff.

Diet has been another story. I've been trying really hard to keep healthy, but I've slipped a few times. I'm hovering around 132 right now, and I'd really like to get down to 125 before I move to Baltimore and start law school. I gained a few pounds back this semester, as it was a crazy party time. I'm not really that mad at myself, because it could have been a lot worse. I'm not drinking alcohol anymore, so I think that will be helpful.

I know I'll probably always be concerned with my weight, but it would be great to start a really stressful part of my life only trying to maintain my weight.

I hope everyone's been doing really well.

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 08:21:52 GMT

It is sooo hard to stay on track right now.

This whole week I was perfect. My weight was down to 127.5 this morning.

Thennn... tonight, big dinner on campus. ate a lot... not ridiculously though, but still a lot. That would have been fine. Then comes the second part!

I drank and ate more. Argh.

I'll go work out at the gym tomorrow. I'll try to stay on track some more. It's going to be hard with the next few weeks. I really just want to get between 120 and 125! 123 would be so nice. I just need to try harder.

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 03:38:56 GMT

This morning- 129.6

Breakfast:
Honey Bunches of Oats and Skim Milk- about 200
Rice Cake- 45

Snack:
Soy Crisps: 140

Lunch:
Salad: 70
SB wheat crackers: 100
Rice Cake: 45

Dinner:
Tuna on Whole Wheat Bread with FF miracle whip: 250
Popcorn and some chex mix: 250ish
100 calorie Oreo pack: 100

Estimated Total: 1200

Workouts:
1 hour weight training session
40 minutes on elliptical

screwed up this weekend! gah....

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 02:02:51 GMT

So Saturday I was so healthy. Then.... I ended up drinking saturday night :-/ It's my last semester, and it seems like everyone is living it up. I want to lose the last 5-10 pounds, but I don't want to miss out and regret not going out more.

So I forgave myself, and ate healthy on Sunday. BUT.... I ended up eating a big brownie later that night.

Today I was very healthy. It's just the weekend :-/

My Day :)

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 22:57:51 GMT

Back to updating :) I weighed in at 131 this morning, which isn't so bad considering this month was a basic bust after being sick and going to Miami for Spring Break. I only want to lose a little under 10 more pounds. I think 123 is my goal right now (right between 120-125 ;))

Food for the day

1.5 cups of multi-grain cheerios and skim milk: 200 calories
strawberries and cottage cheese: estimating it at 100 calories
1 popcorn/rice cake: 45 calories
Salad with fat free ranch dressing: 150 calories
South Beach Diet Wheat crackers: 100 calories
Grilled Chicken with Low Carb Pita: 300 calories
Baked Lays: 210 Calories
100 Calorie Oreos: 100

Estimated total: 1205

I might have something small before I go to bed, but I'm really not hungry right now.

Exercise: 40 minutes on Arc Trainer
Hip Adduction Machine: 3 sets of 10 reps
Hip Abduction Machine: 3 sets of 10 reps
Core Strength: 20 regular crunches, 20 left oblique, 20 right oblique, 20 reverse crunches, 20 full body crunches, 20 bicycle single, 20 bicycle double.

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 20:03:42 GMT

I weighed myself today, afraid that I wouldn't be happy about the number because this weekend I drank two nights in a row (something I hadn't really done all semester) and had some not so healthy food at my friend's birthday party. I weighed in at 127.8 this morning, which I was very surprised about. Not only did I cheat a bit this weekend, but I should be getting my period soon. My goal is to be between 120-125, so I'm very close to attaining it. Yay :)

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 18:47:52 GMT

I weighed in at 130.4 this morning. I've been losing a pound a week, which is to be expected, but I had been losing weight a lot easier prior to this. I would lose about two pounds every week; however, I have been weight training and building muscle, so I can't realistically expect the number to keep going down as fast as it has been.

I just ate lunch with an old high school friend. We are attending the same college, and we have gone through the past four years together. He made me feel good about losing all the weight; it made me realize how noticable it really is. I hope to reach my goal of under 125 soon!

So far I have eaten:

Honey Bunches of Oats and Skim Milk
Egg white Omelette with mushrooms and peppers
Grapes, Broccoli, and cucumbers
100 Calorie pack of whole wheat crackers from SB diet
Rice Cake

I'm around 500-550 calories right now, and I only have dinner left. I also did about an hour of aerobics and toning in class this morning. My leg hurts so I don't see myself going back to the gym tonight.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 00:35:15 GMT

Long time no update....

So I had been amazing the past few weeks.... working out, eating right, dropping pounds. My weight reached 134.5 before I went home for thanksgiving break... but ugggh... three days of non stop eating! I ate terribly over break and my weight went up. I'm hoping that I can bring it back down. I need to stop doing that... binging every now and then. Oh well... I can do this. Everybody noticed how great I look, so I want to continue to do so.

Here goes the next round!

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 01:19:35 GMT

this morning- 141.5

breakfast:
honey bunches of oats with milk.. small portion: 200 cals (inflated)

lunch
Turkey on wheat with honey dijon mustard-- 300 cals
baked lays- 220 cals

dinner:

salad with chicken and fat free dressing-- 300 cals

Snack:
sugar free pudding with fat free whipped cream-- 100 cals
half a 100 calorie pack of graham crakers-- 60 cals

total- about 1200 calories

A new Beginning...

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 00:40:37 GMT

I took a serious break from this journal, didn't I?

The summer brought temptation and hard times with dieting. I was not successful at being healthy; however, I did not gain that much weight. I probably put back on about 5 pounds.

So here I go again. I now have some goals I want to accomplish:
By thanksgiving I would like to weigh 130 pounds.
By Christmas I would like to weigh 125 pounds.
I'm hoping that I will accomplish these goals before these dates. I'm giving myself time to do it though; I do not want to feel rushed.
If I accomplish these goals, I will switch over to trying to maintain the weight. Hopefully, this will be what I accomplish.

This morning I weighed 142 pounds.

Breakfast:
Honey Bunches of Oats and Skim milk: 200 cals

Lunch:
2 'popcorn' cakes (like rice cakes but made with popcorn): 80 cals
1 100 cal cheese nip package: 100 cals

Dinner:

Turkey on WW bread: 275 cals
Baked Lays: 220 cals
1 100 cal pack of oreos: 100

total cals- 975? that seems low, but thats what it adds up to be

Thu, 12 May 2005 01:03:08 GMT

142.5 this morning

bfast- egg white omelette- 90 cals

lunch- plain tuna on whole wheat- 230
baked lays- 130

dinner- turkey sub from subway- 560 cals
baked lays 130

total: 1260ish

Tue, 10 May 2005 04:19:32 GMT

Holy goodness, long time no update

I wasn't completely good over the past two months. I went home for spring break and broke my diet. I had a few days here where i was not so strong. I gave up my break from alcohol.

BUT, I still lost 6.5- 7 pounds. This morning I weighed in at 144, but the day before I was at 143.5. I think I'm getting my period soon.

Brunch:
Sushi-- 290 cals
diet coke

Dinner
turkey on whole wheat bread with dijon mustard-- about 275 cals
Salad with ff dressing-- about 100 cals (overestimating)
Baked lays-- 130 cals

total: 795... too low :/

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 23:22:56 GMT

weight this morning- 150.5

breakfast
honey bunches of oats, skim milk-- est. 200

Lunch
Salad ff dressing and croutons-- est. 150 cals
soy chips-- est. 140 cals

Dinner
12" turkey sub with spinach lettuce, tomatos, lettuce, and honey mustard-- 560 cals
baked lays-- 130 cals

total-- 1180 cals

the weight loss is starting to get slower :-/

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 22:06:29 GMT

weight-- 151.5 (about there, the scale keeps showing different numbers, but that's about right :))

Breakfast-- honey bunches of oats cals with skim milk- 200 cals (rounding up)

Lunch-- california roll sushi-- 290 cals

projected Dinner-- Turkey Sub from subway with baked lays and diet dr.pepper: 690 calories

total- 1180 calories total for the day

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 22:33:58 GMT

weight today-- 153.5
i had my period last week... so that's probably why there's a three pound weight loss from about a week ago.. interesting...

breakfast:

honey bunches of oats + skim milk: box says 170, but i'll round up to 200

Lunch
Salad, fat free dressing: about 70 calories, i'd guess

Snack:
Special K bar- 90 cals

Dinner:

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 17:50:46 GMT

morning weight-- 155

breakfast

honey bunches of oats with skim milk-- 200 cals

4 strawberries-- 40 cals

Lunch

turkey on whole wheat bread-- 230 cals
baked lays- 220 cals
1 strawberry- 10 cals

Dinner

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 06:54:16 GMT

Breakfast

special k and skim milk-- 150 calories

Lunch

egg white omelette-- 90 cals
fat free cheese-- 60 cals
soy chips 140 cals

dinner

12 inch turkey sub on wheat at subway-- 560 cals (+ 40 to be safe)

total calories-- 1050 for the day

i really didn't eat that much. i was tempted to get something later that night when i went to a cafe, but i really ate pretty well today. I was supposed to go to a banquet, so i was preparing a big dinner, but it didn't work out that way. so i saved some cals.

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 02:49:40 GMT

weight in the morning-- 156.5 pounds

Breakfast:

honey bunches of oats and skim milk --> 200 calories (inflated)

Lunch

turkey on whole wheat bread: 210 calories

Dinner:

salad w/ fat free dressing: 70 calories (inflated)
whole wheat pasta-- 300 calories
wheat bread-- 300 calories
sauce-- 50 calories

Desert:
snackwell cookies -- 100 calories

total: 1230 calories. This is a complete estimate though!

tomorrow i'm going to a college dems dinner thing. I have to stick to my guns and EAT HEALTHY! :)

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 00:50:56 GMT

Breakfast:

special k, skim milk, a mix of cheerios: 200 cals? *a bit inflated

Lunch
2 slices whole wheat bread 180 cals
2 slices of fat free cheese 60 cals
part of an apple 60 cals
one small onion ring (just one, indulged a little) 70 cals

Dinner
Whole wheat pasta 250 cals
salad ff dressing 60 cals
whole wheat italian bread 250

Dessert
4 snackwell cookies... made me feel sick.... 200 cals

total cals-- about 1330, a bit high today

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 01:20:09 GMT

Another day!

Breakfast:
Special K with skim milk (150 cals)

Lunch:
Barbeque soy chips (140 cals)
Diet Dr. Pepper (0 cals, but NOT healthy!)

Dinner:
Delied Turkey 75 Cals
fat free cheese 40 calories (guessign)
2 slices of Whole Wheat bread 180 calories
Salad- (lettuce, baby corn, chick peas, and cucumbers): 100 calories
fat free dressing: 50 calories
Soy chips: 140 calories

Dessert
3 snackwell cookies: 150 calories (no fat.. I was only supposed to have 2!)

And a bit less than half a square of pizza with no cheese on one quarter. I'm going to count this as 250 calories, but it may be more. I should not have eaten it... but it was sooo tempting!

total: 1275

I also walked for about an hour and 15 minutes. Tomorrow I'm going to wal-mart to buy a scale and to make dinner with my friend. Living on campus sucks, because the choice in food is ridiculously slim. I need to diversify!

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 23:03:37 GMT

I went to the Doctor's today for my leg injury. He gave me some stretches to work on, so that's good.

I finally weighed myself. The only problem, which I now realize, is I don't know where I started. I either was at 160 or 165. I also have to take into account that my leg is swollen and I'm on medication. I don't know how that will impact the results. I had also just eaten breakfast and drank a lot of water, so the results would be different if I woke up and just weighed myself. I was about 158, which would be perfect if I started at 165 (2 pounds a week). If I started at 160, that wouldn't be so good. I also think I'm going to get my period soon, which definitely would explain an extra few pounds. I felt pretty bloated today. I'm going to buy a scale now, because I realize how important it is to track success.

Food today:
Breakfast
egg white omelette- 90 cals
fat free cheese- i'm not sure... estimating at 90 calories total
whole wheat bread (2 slices)-- 180 cals

Lunch--
I ended up taking a long nap after waiting on line for concert tickets all morning. So no lunch. I did have a handful of cheerios though

cheerios- 100 cals

Dinner--
Salad, fat free dressing guessing 152 cals? it was lettuce, mushroom, and some croutons. The dressing was about 50, and the croutons probably led to the other 75. I should stop eating those with my salad

cup of chili- 152 cals
plain tuna on whole wheat with lettuce-- 230 cals

total for the day: 992

I will probably have a snack after my meeting. i'd like to be around 1200, but I definitely will only eat fruit or soy chips. soy chips are becoming my vice ;)

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 20:02:04 GMT

Okay, I'm going to officially start documenting my food everyday. I've been doing well for four weeks, but I haven't weighed myself. I can see that I'm thinner, but I'm waiting to weigh myself. I don't want the number to play a role in it.

SO far today:

eggwhite omelette with fat free cheese-- 140
two slices of whole wheat bread-- 180 cals
1 package of glenny's soy chips (which equals out to two servings) -- 140 cals

total so far-- 460

My goal is 1200 for the day, so I should be good. I have dinner left and that's it.

I can't wait until I can do some hardcore exercising. I have a doctor's appt so I will hopefully find out more tomorrow

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 03:04:45 GMT

This is my new journal. I have another account, but I want to keep it completely seperate from this one. Mostly because I want to feel free to express how I feel without having someone I personally know analyze it.

I would not call my self fat, but I have become overweight. I am 5'5, and I recently reached my high weight of 160 pounds. This is not a good weight for my height. According to the BMI chart, I am on the brink of overweight. This is bad, but at the same time it has inspired me to give healthy living a chance. I always wanted to lose the weight, but I was never determined. Two and a half weeks ago, I changed my life. I decided it was time to make everything healthy, especially my eating habits. Since then, I have not eaten anything fried, chocolate, or with sugar in it. I had hurt my leg over break, which somewhat inspired my healthy attitude, so I decided that I had to cut back on calories to make up for my lack of movement. I have tried to maintain a diet between 1000-1200 calories a day, and I have been mostly successful. I have not weighed myself at all, mostly for fear of being disappointed by the number. I'm scared that it'll be not very different and I'll feel that all my hard work was a waste. I'd ideally like to be in the 130s. Right now I'm using the motivation of getting my belly button pierced to keep me going. I haven't had any desire to cheat, so I really have done well, something I'm NOT used to. I used to think it was impossible to stay on a healthy diet. Anyway, I'd love to share tips with anyone or hear ideas others have.